The theme this week is Lost and Found. Kathryn says (edited for brevity) "It is time to think about things that we’ve lost. In this step, your journaling will be very personal and unique to your own interpretation of the theme “lost.” Give yourself some time to reflect on the topic."
I used this theme as an opportunity to address a very hard time in my marriage. Every image and embellishment was chosen carefully for what they symbolize, although it may not be apparent to the reader without explanation.
The "lost" message says "There was a time period [lasted two years] where I lost hope that my marriage would survive. We simply went through the motions for our daughter's sake. It was difficult and painful for both of us [husband and I]."
The wedding picture is self-explanatory, the journal page is about marriage. The lotto ticket symbolizes the risk you take when you choose a mate. The chance that you may be heartbroken at some point or that the marriage will fail.
The choice of color, sheet music and brightness of the heart represented the change that occurred within me, when I finally made the choice to work on me for me and not because it was something my husband wanted. In 2005, I rediscovered myself, joy, my love of music, and my creativity. I became so much happier because of those changes and those changes affected how my husband looked at me, looked at himself and our marriage. The change was monumental and profound. I no longer lived for my husband, I lived for me and in the process saved my marriage. The numbers 448, is my personal reminder of that change. The number also represents other things, which I won't go into at this time.
The "Bon Voyage" image represents how close we came to saying goodbye, to going our separate ways. The "2-of-Hearts" represents the choice we made to "Do Over" or try again and was purposely placed over the Bon Voyage image.
The excerpt of the lyrics to the Rolling Stones song says "You can't always get what you want, But if you try sometimes,
You just might find, You get what you need."
And so I leave you with this video to enjoy. It's my favorite version of the song.
Thank you for reading.