Yes, I’m still a Twirp.

A few weeks ago I was reorganizing our collection of family photos and memorabilia and I came across a scrapbook I kept when I was in high school.  Among the photos of my high school buds I found my old learners permit and a “Twirp License.” Have you ever heard of a Twirp License? 

Every year we had a week long school event called Sadie Hawkins week and at the end of the week we had the Sadie Hawkins dance. In order to go to this dance, the guys had to be invited by a girl and the girl had to buy a Twirp license if they wanted to do the inviting.  (Now I’m wishing I hadn’t packed away the photograph of me with my date. Talk about looking like a Twirp.)

The dance was a lot of fun and I was able to get close to the boy I may have never had the chance to know well had I not acted like “a Twirp”.  (Unfortunately he met his demise a year or so later but that’s another story altogether.) The lesson it taught me was that sometimes you have to risk getting embarrassed to get something you want.

I took that same type of risk some years later when I first laid eyes on my husband. He walked in to the bar where I was having drinks with my girlfriends, I took one look in his eyes and knew I wanted him in my life. I immediately wondered how I was going to meet him and still not look too forward or trashy. As he stood talking with some friends, I walked past him and as I did, I reached over and lightly touched his hand with my fingertips and said Hi….That’s all, just Hi and kept walking.  Lucky for him he followed me (LOL), and the rest is a 25 year history.

Have you ever wondered what would have happened had you taken the risk you were too afraid to take? Or did you take the risk and reap the benefits? Tell me about it.

Starting Over

I bet you though I’d disappeared never to return.  Nah, just been so busy I haven’t had the opportunity to create art.  Although I have been working on a big project, not a painting, that I can’t discuss or show you just yet.  But I will when it’s complete.

If you’re a frequent reader of my blog you know that there has been some turmoil around Casa de LittleBit. Well, decisions have been made and all for the better I might add.  Except that while I know intellectually that the changes will be good for us, my emotions are still fighting it.  Giving up on this life is H-A-R-D. 

We will be putting our house on the market soon and are now in the process of cleaning, decluttering and purging ourselves of unnecessary household goods. How do you collect that much stuff in just 4 years?  Unbelievable.

To what end?  We have decided to move back to our home town in New Mexico. That is where my husband and I are both from (although we never lived there as a married couple.) My daughter lives there with her husband and her soon to be born son as does my step-daughter..  While I am beyond thrilled that we will be living close to our precious children and grandchild…… I never planned on living in NM ever again.  It’s not the place I really want to be. And yet…we’re going because that’s where we should be … with our family.  We decided we need to be in our grandchild’s life much more than we hate living in NM. So that’s where we are going to be starting over.  But I don’t know when just yet.

My journal page reflects the conflict that’s been plaguing my mind:

“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us. “

 

Have I told you that I love the movie “The Crow” with Brandon Lee? No? Well, last weekend as I watched my 10th or so viewing of it, I took this photo of the TV screen with an Iphone app called Procamera, then used the PSMobile app, to alter it. I think it’s cool. :)

 

What’s on your mind these days?